Thursday, November 27, 2008

Values and the Creative Process

©Stella Kalaw

Announcer: I'm sure you have been given awards and recognitions. Are these important to you?

Carmencita: Not really.

Announcer: Although, it's a great affirmation of what you do or how you are doing.

Carmencita: What gives me a lot of satisfaction is the joy of having reached a certain level of playing and being able to share my music.
________

I got up from the sofa, grabbed a pencil and a piece of scrap paper and scribbled down this part of the radio interview. When T arrived from work yesterday, I shared it with her. Mrs. Aspiras' answer struck a chord with us for we have had several discussions along this line. When it comes down to what we value in our chosen fields above anything else, it is that love for the creative process. T has fought the step up to management because it would take her away from the intimacy of the design process. Her decision is often perceived by others as a lack of ambition. Although she is committed to her values, she confesses that she sometimes struggles with this perception.

In the interview, Mrs. Aspiras mentioned that she practices for 4 hours everyday. It reminds me of how T can get engrossed in front of the computer for hours agonizing over several design directions at the same time she tinkers with the database she built from scratch to improve her workflow. "It's all in the details." she would always say to me.

When I look back at the moments that were fulfilling for me, it was either an idea suddenly came together for a project after mulling it over for months or the process of achieving a certain level of creating pictures that is consistent with my personal vision.

Alex Webb perfectly sums this up through Alec Soth's entry at the Magnum's Blog entitled Wear Good Shoes: Advice to Young Photographers:

Photograph because you love doing it, because you absolutely have to do it, because the chief reward is going to be the process of doing it. Other rewards -- recognition, financial remuneration -- come to so few and are so fleeting. And even if you are somewhat successful, there will almost inevitably be stretches of time when you will be ignored, have little income, or -- often -- both. Certainly there are many other easier ways to make a living in this society. Take photography on as a passion, not a career.


Tuesday, November 25, 2008

An afternoon off

Work ended at 1:00 this afternoon. A week or so ago, management made the decision to reduce office hours between now until the end of the year due to the unexpected loss of revenue from companies that decided to cancel their meetings for next year. Although the free time came at a cost, I decided to make the best of it. I thought to myself, what a perfect opportunity to visit galleries to get inspired!

I walked down Market street towards the Embarcadero and then made a left on the next block to Grant St. My first stop was Rena Bransten Gallery whose address is really 77 Geary but the building has a second entrance on Grant.

Brazilian born artist Vik Muniz's Pictures of Paper and Gordian Puzzles were on display.



©Vik Muniz

Dallas Mill, Hunstville: 1910 after Lewis Hine
2008

This work is a collage made of several pieces of white, black and a variety of gray paper intricately assembled to reconstruct a photograph Lewis Hines made in 1910. I stared at this piece for quite sometime, mesmerized by Muniz' process. Even more impressive was this other piece called The School of Athens, by Raphael. This time, he uses hundreds of jigsaw puzzle pieces layered on top of each other to re-interpret the image. The work is then rephotographed and enlarged to almost fill an entire wall.

©Vik Muniz

The School of Athens, after Raphael
2008

Next, I headed a few doors down to 49 Geary. I started on the 3rd floor at Stephen Wirtz Gallery where Todd Hido: A Road Divided was being shown. The exhibit showcases his new landscapes expanding from his previous body of work called Roaming.

©Todd Hido

7557, 2008

©Todd Hido

6426, 2007

At Fraenkel Gallery on the 4th floor, they had Richard Avedon: Performance on view. Vintage prints were shown together with some contact sheets and actual envelopes used to contain the negatives from his archive. Seeing these artifacts brought back memories of New York where I did an internship with Mr. Penn after graduating from school.

A book was published to accompany this exhibit.

©Richard Avedon

Elizabeth Taylor, 1958

Finally, Robert Koch gallery on the 5th floor held an exhibit by Michael Wolf: The Transparent City. This is in conjunction with his recent book released last month with the same title. The prints were gorgeous! The work reminds me of the classic Hitchcock movie, The Rear Window with Jimmy Stewart and Grace Kelly. The gallery uses an anti-reflective water-white glass for their framing that no glare is evident when viewing the photographs ( I only know this because it was typed on the price list).

©Michael Wolf

Transparent City, #39



©Michael Wolf






Collectibles: Wall Space

Inquirer
©Aline Smithson


Collectibles at Wall Space

55 artists from across the country are in the gallery this month. Discover creative work by new artists, each with a unique vision of photography. We wanted to provide an opportunity for new and established collectors, as well as aficionados of the photographic image to see and purchase new works at a price we can all afford.

Each of these creative images is priced under $200, a reasonable investment for anyone who loves top quality work from local and national artists who we think are creating really inventive, imaginative and uncommon works.

Limited creations – once in a lifetime images. Connect visually, emotionally. So many artists. So many ideas. Surround yourself with something beautiful that touches you. Challenge yourself, question your ideals. Look at it everyday and find something new. Collectible is art that fits. Fits your wall, your budget, your conscience.

________

Wall Space also has a blog called The Flat Files

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Found: Lucid Dreams by Robert & Shana ParkeHarrison

© Robert and Shana ParkeHarrison

Another gem from my hard drive.

Found: old fortune


I've been cleaning my hard drive this afternoon and came across this fortune that I scanned a few years ago. I remember carrying it in my old wallet for the longest time. Hmm, I wonder where that faraway land will be?

Inspiration: Contemporary Photography from Iran

Untitled, 26
©Ebrahim Khadem Bayat

Untitled, 38
©Arman Stepanian


My Family (Hallelujah 2) (46)
©Shahriar Tavakoli

There was an old copy of Aperture magazine (Summer 2007) among the many catalogues and handouts that were inside the complimentary bag that was handed out at SPE West last weekend. I finally had the time to look through the magazine this morning. I found this mysterious and intriguing image by Ebrahim Khadem Bayat. It was a black and white portrait of a woman whose face was shrouded in a gauze like veil. That prompted me to search for more images online. I found two others from a downloadable PDF of the Persian Visions catalogue. The exhibit is currently traveling around the US scheduled until 2010.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Early Inspiration: W. Eugene Smith

Charlin Chaplin at Work
W. Eugene Smith



Nurse Midwife
W. Eugene Smith



Country Doctor
W. Eugene Smith


Back when I was a college student in Manila, the only resource for photography books that I knew of was at the Jefferson library in Buendia Avenue. They had two shelves full of monographs and I would pull each book and look through them. It was my first immersion in American Photography. One book that particularly caught my eye was Master of the Photographic Essay: W. Eugene Smith (Aperture, 1981). I had no idea what a photo essay was until I saw this and I was immediately fascinated by the idea that pictures could tell stories. I borrowed the book a few times and I would study them at night. The photographs were printed small (about the size of a thumbnail) so that approximately 1,800 images could fit in one publication. It took time for me to get through all the photographs.

Two days ago, I was thrilled to read in the news that the Life Photo Archive was being hosted by Google. I typed in my favorite essays by W. Eugene Smith and I had this big smile on my face when they came up on the screen. It was like seeing them again for the first time in a very long time.

I used to exclusively shoot in black and white before I transitioned to color a few years ago. Last May, I posted a photo essay about my niece who survived a stroke at birth. You'll see hints of W. Eugene Smith's influence on me through this body of work.






Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Dusk

4th and Harrison
San Francisco

While walking to pick up T this evening, I looked up and noticed the sky was increasingly getting darker as I passed each block from the hotel to T's office. The cold weather was back and the fog was starting to roll into the city. I paused momentarily at one intersection, pulled my camera from my backpack and took these pictures. I couldn't believe the year was almost over. Thanksgiving is next week. Winter is here. I continued to walk. Nothing particular was preoccupying my mind but I was feeling grateful for all opportunities that came my way this year.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Who do you look at?

This question was posed to me after the presentation and I did not have time to really think about it. "Whose work inspires you?" she followed up. I rambled some names off the top of my head and wished I had a few minutes to collect my thoughts and put a list together. I should remember this question should it come up again in the future.

I've mentioned some books and photographers that inspired me throughout this blog and here are two links to those posts.

Books on Place and Personal Experiences
The Family as Photographic Subjects

I would also encourage you to read my other entries that I started with a title, Inspiration: (Name of Photographer or Photographic Work).

Here are a few more:

Martina Mullaney
KayLynn Deveney
Stuart O'Sullivan
Harry Gruyaert
Alec Soth
Michael Wolf
Mitch Epstein
Joakim Eskildsen
Dinu Li
Matthew Monteith

Saturday, November 15, 2008

A Week Before

Photographing the Everyday
SPE West Presentation
Academy of Art, San Francisco


I could feel the knot in my stomach when I woke up this morning. The day had come for my first ever presentation to an audience. Earlier in the week, Erika emailed me a link to a picture of the room where the presentations were being held. "It holds up to 75 people." she wrote. Gulp.

T was more nervous for me. "You have to practice!!" she insisted. We purchased a small video camera so that I could record my presentation and review my performance. On my first go, T just gave me a blank stare. I knew I was rambling and I had trouble putting my thoughts together. So, she patiently watched the video and helped me give it the structure it needed.

Once she completed the slide show, she again insisted that I write everything down. "In case you forget something, you can always look at your notes." It took me a several days to finish it. I procrastinated especially last week when the election was at its peak. But, I had to curb my surfing and just focus on the task at hand. Once the writing was done, T put the thumbnails and words together and printed my notes.

So, I practiced every night since Monday. Luckily, I had Friday off so I had the opportunity to polish the parts where I kept stumbling. T left me alone. She held residence upstairs while I stayed downstairs, talking in front of the video camera. I insisted that she turn the TV on so she could not hear me.

My presentation was at 2:00 in the afternoon so I had to mull over on what to eat for lunch. Although I was hungry, I did not want anything heavy for fear of an unsettled stomach during the presentation. So I settled on a turkey burger on a baguette with salad on the side. I looked at the time on my cell phone and it was still early. To calm my nerves, I headed to Macy's basement and bought a cup of my favorite ice cream Chocolate Fudge Brownie from Ben and Jerry's. I sat in the shade on one of the benches at Union Square and people watched. The center was closed off from the public. A few workers were already installing the Christmas tree for the annual Christmas tree lighting ceremony next month. I couldn't believe the year was almost over.

People started streaming in and filling the room 15 minutes before the presentation. I was surprised I was not as nervous as I thought I would be. Erika gave a nice warm introduction. She reminded the audience that it was my first time to speak and advised me that we were all friends in the room. When I got up to the podium, I started to speak, carefully pacing myself to avoid rambling. By the middle of the presentation, I scanned the audience and I was glad to see that I was still holding their attention. I even injected a few laughs in the process. Three people asked me a question and of course, the proverbial "What lens did you use?" came up.

Afterwards, about six people approached me and said they loved the talk. Others thanked me for inspiring them and I thought that was the best compliment ever considering I've never done this before. Someone even suggested I post the presentation on the blog but I'm not sure what the most effective way to do it. I called T when I got out of the building and told her it went well and that I didn't have any major slip ups. Someone even came up after I hung up the phone to compliment me.

I am now in a cafe across the street sipping a cup of hot chocolate, feeling relieved that it was over. In a few weeks, I will have to do it all over again. I have to prepare for an artist talk in January in conjunction with the show in Manila.

In the meantime, I am smiling to myself just savoring this moment just a little while longer.

Friday, November 14, 2008

SPE West Conference November 13-16, 2008

I will be giving a presentation at the SPE West Conference tomorrow which is being held in San Francisco, CA. This year's theme is inspiration.

Conference Schedule

Presenter's Bios

The Society for Photographic Education (SPE) is a non-profit membership organization that provides a forum for the discussion of photography and related media as a means of creative expression and cultural insight. Through its interdisciplinary programs, services and publications, the Society seeks to promote a broader understanding of the medium in all its forms, and to foster the development of its practice, teaching, scholarship and membership. The west region includes California, Nevada and Hawaii.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Fog 2

Cesar Chavez Park
Berkeley, CA, 2007.


Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Fog

Emeryville, 2007


Saturday, November 8, 2008

Eduardo

Ed, 2008
Carlton, OR
©Stella Kalaw

I've been friends with Eduardo for over 15 years. I was first introduced to him by my brother and my younger sister. They were involved in a theatre production back in high school. When I moved to California, my brother handed me his phone number in Los Angeles. He wanted to make sure I knew someone from the past--someone familiar. And, who could not forget Eduardo? Flamboyant, funny and highly energetic, he was never one to be missed in a crowd.

We hit it off the minute we spoke on the phone. Since then, we called each other regularly. We cracked jokes and ended up laughing uncontrollably until we could not breath. Other times, our conversations were more sober-- we talked about our hopes and dreams and comforted each other when it came to matters of the heart. After school, we still kept in touch though not as often as we used to.

When I saw him again a few weeks ago, we just picked up where we left off. I feel so blessed to have friends who continue to maintain a personal connection in spite of the distance between us. As always, he narrated both real and fictitious stories over the course of the weekend complete with theatrical gestures mixed in with his boisterous laughter. Not only was he entertaining, he was also a gracious host. Before I left, I took his photograph while we were in Carlton.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

November 5


A MUNI driver hugs a passenger the day after Barack Obama won the election.
©Stella Kalaw

Monday, November 3, 2008

Quiet Heroes



Let us not forget the quiet heroes in our lives. Go Vote tomorrow!